so im in brazil - it is going to be home for the next few months. a few good points are it is hot and i will get a tan, we have a pool and get the wekends off. a few negative points are its soooo hot!!! And we get eaten by mozzies and there are cockroaches that fly and scream at you.
Im having a good time it is hard being away from home and being away with people that don´t really know you but apart from that it is good.
i don´t really know what else to say - im sitting in a sweaty internet cafe and i swear that some of the men in here are watching porn on their computures!!
yeah all is good apart from that i know that i am going to have some great experiences.
so i shall sign out
love x

Away i go

So it is finally here, I'm going early Tuesday morning - to early for my liking 3 in the morning!! I met the rest of the team that are going to Brazil, they seem nice. Although i am still finding it strange that i am going to be spending four months of my life with people that i don't really know. And leaving behind the person that knows me the best, its kind of surreal.
Looking back at my time at home it has gone really fast... to fast but it has been good. I'm looking forward to my time away in someways but I'm also looking forward to the future after Brazil.
So today is mothers day and it has been a good day, I'm not sure that i agree with the ways companies exploit holidays for their financial benefit but then i like making my mum happy.
Well back to me going away - I am all packed and i can't believe how much stuff i have it is astonishing how much stuff one person needs for 4 months. my medical kit is bigger than my head!!! well at least i am prepared for all situations :)
well i shall send my ramblings into cyber space

x

16th march

So I'm leaving again,
on the 16th of march. Its much sooner than i thought, I've been going around as though I've got all the time in the world... but then i don't.
Time is weird it seems never ending - then its not.
It stops, life ends for some but goes on for others.
so now i realized that i have little time to get ready, but then i will probably still waste time as well. I think it is just human nature. i recon at this point in my life most of my time is spent sleeping. and sleeping is what i should be doing now but then when you want to sleep you can't. so here is a poem that is probably more interesting than my ramblings about time.

she slipped away at around eight
she is far from the world now
it was sad but good
for it was her time to leave

like the snow flakes that melt
when the sun comes out
and a rainbow when the rain fades

lives leave an imprint on others
people leave but memories remain
time ticks on and on
and pictures fade

but i will always remember
that smile on your face
and the love and kindness
that you gave
will always remain

tantrums, i never thought i would pull one until today.
looking back on it i don't think it was the most calculated decision.
Especially as I'm 19 and am deemed by society as an 'adult' - i can vote, drive and drink.
But i can't choose the option not to clean the bathroom?!
It's interesting how parents still have power over you.
They are able give you a reality check.
That ... although society might deem you as an adult it doesn't exhume you from house hold chores.
- lesson learned, i think.

* After spending 3 months living in India teaching in a slum, I'm finding it slightly difficult adjusting to being home.
I think its more the going from being independent to being accountable to the 'parents' that I'm struggling with. It's not that I'm not pleased to be home it's just... um ... what am i accomplishing here?
I'm on my Gap year and this is a blog about my comings and goings and about discovering who I'm meant to be

to cyberspace your probably not interested but I'm going to write anyways

Beth x